What makes the torn, ripped, bruised feel so comforting? Does pain sometimes remind us we are alive? Isn’t destruction part of growth? The seedling cracking it’s shell, pushing dirt aside to reach the sun. The fish swallowing the fish swallowing the fish in order to survive.
Just a quick pondering for the day.
Music: The Beat Goes On -song by Sonny & Cher
Wednesday, September 12, 2018
Sunday, August 19, 2018
My Mid-Year Artsy Catch Up
Ok, you don’t know how many blog posts I’ve longhand written
then promptly lost or spilt stuff on or simply found that I’m past whatever it
was I started to write about. –but now as I am sitting in the airport with a
seriously delayed flight and office surface on my lap, I thought I might as
well type my post directly that way maybe I’ll actually get it posted. AND I’m
blank. Like how can I have a million things to say then I have time to share
them and ……..
Guess I’ll just start with what’s been going on lately
art-wise.
First I’ve been participating in the 100 day project. Quite
simply it is picking something (creative) that you do for 100 days and post,
specifically on Instagram. I chose to make 4”x4” squares of art loosely based
in some way or another to music. So I’ve gotten to 43 but since have sort taken
a break. I was kind of averaging 3 to 4 pieces a week, not bad for me. I think
I’m going to modify the challenge to 54 (my current age) then I plan to bind
them into a little journal. Above is a quick sampling of some that I’ve done so
far. I’ll group them and go into their stories on future posts. (Oh nice, lots
of new posts that I won’t even need to think about. Maybe it’ll get me back in
the habit of posting more consistently)
Next (yeah, these things are so not chronological and sort
of overlap and such) I’ve been art journaling a good bit. I really want to
complete all the journals that I have half completed. I’ve particularly enjoyed
making papers. (yet another post to go into –new techniques from a local co-op
called art & soul here in Nashville, gelli printing when my artfest friend
Amanda came down to visit, and the ever loved kitchen sink approach with lots of luscious
color –I even did my first ever youtube video. Check it out) My new obsession
is creating funky collage folks. I really want to make a video of the process.
Not hard at all and so much fun.
Finally, I participated in a Facebook group lead by Misty
Mawn called Portray Yourself. It has prompts such as “Adorn” or “Nature” where
you create a self-portrait based on that theme. One of the things that I really
liked about the group was that based on what I wanted to created I found a new
(free) phone app called Fused which allows you to merge/double exposure photos.
I have had so much fun playing with it both for self portraiture but also all
sorts of other things.
Well, I guess I had more to say than I thought. Northing to
deep or anything but more a breezy catch-up and personal push because now,
goodness I’ve actually gone from …. To a crazy lot that I want to share with
y’all!
Well until next time, have a wonderful life and keep on
arting!!!!
Music for Today: “Leaving on a Jet Plane” song by Peter,
Paul & Mary, written by John Denver (I had no idea he had written this
until I went to find it on YouTube to add to my blog post. What random new
tidbits we pickup ach day, lol)
Monday, January 22, 2018
C E L E B R A T I O N
HELLO 2018 -and Good
Bye 2017, you sure zoomed right on past!
I blinked and WOW, a whole year went
by. That old notion of time passing in proportion to the whole of your existence,
sure seems accurate to me. I have no doubt time is merely a human construct and
totally relative. Hmmm…. Now can I leverage that next time I happen to be a bit
late –‘cause you know that is going to happen at some point. (Aside –check out
this What But Why’s post on lateness. I just adore this site)
Ok now back to my
post, oh yes, 2018. I think 2018 is going to be an AMAZING year for me and to
honor that exclamation, my word, drumroll
please, is CELEBRATION!!! Usually I ruminate a great deal about my word.
Usually there ends up being about six or seven contenders and they have to duke
it out and then I am mentally and emotionally exhausted from the brain battle.
But not this year!
2018 will be a yearlong celebration! We are talking
P-A-R-T-Y, balloons and banners, champagne and fireworks! Well, maybe not
always that literal, but it is the attitude I hope to cultivate. One of abundance
and joy. I plan to reward myself for small victories and the progress I make
along the way, regardless how silly or inconsequential it may seem!
What is your word for the year? How do you plan to incorporate
it in to your life? I hope to share some of the ways I intend to include the
concept of celebration in my life, particularly through my art in my art
journal. I have several partially completed journals and my mini-goal is to
complete them all before 2019 comes around. It is a rather ambitious task, but
I am super excited to get started!
Music to start the new year: Can't Stop the Feeling -Justin Timberlake
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| Laying out my supplies and general page concept |
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| Smooshing (I just can't keep my fingers out of the paint) |
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| Testing out alternative layouts (It is hard to stop playing and start gluing) |
Friday, October 20, 2017
The Only Thing Constant Is Change
Hello My Darling Artlings,
I'm Sharing Big Life Changes Yet Again!
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| My Little Hurricane Girl doodled in my art journal while Irma made landfall |
It is me, Laurie Anne Smith Sikorowski (Haha, being all fancy and formal-like with my whole name incase you are new to my beloved but often neglected art blurred with lots of randomn life things blog) Well let me see how to start - first a job hunt, then not one but two hurricanes. Angsty Irma, the bully, pretty much affecting all of Florida (and beyond). Nasty timing as I needed to be out of my Key West townhouse by the end of September and the mandatory evacuation made that a strategic nightmare. On the positive, it did push me on to Nashville where I interviewed (a day late, oops, seriously who does this) and seemed to land my dream job! Yay!!!
Oh, you know those reoccurring gremlins that plague me in my art, yes, the ones that I post about ad nauseam, guess what, they are just as active with my architectural practice. Well, maybe not quite on the doing architecture, I’m pretty secure on that part, but all the people stuff -that’s so so scary. Being seen as likable and competent is surprisingly important to me and self-confidence does not come naturally -but I do feel that I am making progress in this department.
I actually found (once I’d done massive prepping) I enjoyed the interview process. The prepping made me really look at what do I want in a career, as well as who am I, and what are my strengths and weaknesses. A snapshot of what I discovered is that I am a problem solver at heart. I like for my mind to be engaged figuring out some particularly intricate puzzle. I also thrive on building and deepening relationships. Not the let's go to the party and simple start talking to people I don’t know (umm.. like no way) but finding commonality and working together towards a common goal type relationships. And finally, I am inspired by beauty. I want to be surrounded by it and a part of its creation. My definition of beauty is broad and encompasses more that the visually pleasing; it is something deeper that can include a sense of appropriateness or even decay. It is an intangible something, more a feeling. It is easier to know where it is not than to describe what it is (although almost any thing, person, or place can have beauty if you are willing to go deep -but that is a thought ripe for a much longer exploration in later post)
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| "Adrift" -an art journal page expressing my sense of ununcertainty as I am between homes |
Needless to say, September was an emotional rollercoaster. The high of truly sensing God’s hand in my journey and profound feelings of gratitude for the opening and shutting of doors. (I feel so taken care of) I picture myself as a seedling being carefully transplanted where I get just the right amount of sunshine and shade. I am dutifully watered and carefully pruned. I am blessed! What a wonderful time to feel so supported by precious friends and family.
BUT still I struggle with the dreadful imposter syndrome. You know where you are afraid that you are putting on an illusion of being more than who you are and if someone gets to know you better they won't think you are as amazing as you have projected. My insecurities are oozing out again, darn it! Crazy life shake ups tend to bring up the best and the worst of what usually lies dormant inside of us. Change is hard and oh how I like my comfort zone. The unknown is scary. My nature likes the calm and my life is totally not even close to calm at the moment.
Which brings me to hurricane number two, Nate. How ironic I run from a storm right into another. Luckily Nate was much less destructive. I actually had college friends staying at the house for Nate’s arrival. No, it wasn’t intentional but ended up being fun. Nine of us crazies, playing games and watching the weather channel as the colorful mass scuttled across the tv screen.
Now, I’m heading to Nashville once again. This time to find a new place to call home. All the typical moving fears are out in full force; will I find friends, will I fit in, will I do well at my new job, and so on and so on, but also that excitement and thrill of a new beginning. I got this! Exhilaration and a soaring sense of endless possibilities! Breathe, just breathe!
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| Sheepish Detail |
I thought I’d have a lot of free time to create but so far it hasn’t happened. A couple small canvases before the storms and a few jounal pages with the meager supplies I kept in my small suitcase (yes, the one, I've been living out of for about a month now) Hopefully as I get settled (& my art supplies are unpacked), I’ll be able to do some painting before my new job begins. My fingers are itching for the smooth glide of paint on paper!
Music for today: (I had to go country since I'm about to be Nashville bound)
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Saturday, July 1, 2017
An Artful Summary of My Year So Far
Hi! Hola! Nameste! Bonjour! Jambo! Ciao!
While I've been quite quiet on my blog, it doesn't mean I haven't been playing around in paints. It has been a busy art filled year. Facebook & Instagram have been my posting spots of choice lately. They are so quick & easy. Please follow me on those platformse for more impromptu updates:
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Well, let see what I've been doing lately, I've not done any art shows or festivals simply because the logistics of travel and set up (especially with a little 2 seater convertible) haven't been ideal. I do miss them though. I am hoping by this Fall to go to a few galleries and see if I can maybe get some art out there in that way. I may have mentioned this previously but, oh lazy me, hasn't actually done it yet. Wish me luck! I'm kind of nervous about doing this which is probably why I've put it off so long.
So This is going to be mostly a visual thumb through of some artsy highlights month by month:
In January, I painted this girl holding a hen & yes, she has a story. On my way to church (a good 45 minutes from my house), my bug went up in smoke and these two sweet Latino men in an old pickup came to my rescue. I had to carry this big rooster in my lap as they drove on to church. Of course, I just had to incorporate this in to my artwork.In February, I got back to a large half done canvas I've had for a long time. Well it is still not finished but one more layer added and lots of joy playing large after working on a lot of little paintings.
In March, the first of two awesome art retreats. This one at Delray Beach with Dyan Reavely and Teesha Moore as the instructors. I made lots of trading cards and had a great time. I also got a great roomie and wonderful new art friend, Tina in the process.
In May and June, I mostly worked in some of my art journals. I still haven't quite finished any of them and am getting a bit impatient. with myself. I'm playing around with some more abstract less figurative works. Lots of ideas, just got to get them down on paper!
And now it is the first of July so who knows where the artful winds will blow! I'll try and pop in a little more often! I'm all twitchy to share a how-to artsy video soon. XOXO
Music for Today's Post: An eclectic trio, lol!
Little River Band - Reminiscing
Harry Styles - Sign of the Times
Ray Charles - Hit The Road Jack
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| Me - Art Dork Extraordinaire |
Saturday, December 10, 2016
Fridamania
What is it about Frida Kahlo that resonates so?
She was passionate, determined, and vulnerable! She managed to live a brief but amazingly bittersweet beautiful imperfect life while often in intense physical pain. A grand romance, a driving cause, a tragic turn.
I love seeing all the interpretations she has inspired. Could she be the most painted woman of this century, particularly by women artists? I would not be surprised. She holds some sort of fascination within our imaginations.
She represents overcoming as well as succumbing. In her, we see many of our own fears and longings. It is no wonder that different diverse groups find an affinity to her art. Sure we have mythologized Frida's admittedly flawed life but because she shared her inner life so honestly, we feel that in some way we are intimate with her. That we know her.
This represents just a few wonderful portraits from amazing artists I've found primarily through Pinterest. I've not yet painted my own portrait of Frida but I just know that I will. The pull is just too strong.
She was passionate, determined, and vulnerable! She managed to live a brief but amazingly bittersweet beautiful imperfect life while often in intense physical pain. A grand romance, a driving cause, a tragic turn.
I love seeing all the interpretations she has inspired. Could she be the most painted woman of this century, particularly by women artists? I would not be surprised. She holds some sort of fascination within our imaginations.
She represents overcoming as well as succumbing. In her, we see many of our own fears and longings. It is no wonder that different diverse groups find an affinity to her art. Sure we have mythologized Frida's admittedly flawed life but because she shared her inner life so honestly, we feel that in some way we are intimate with her. That we know her.
This represents just a few wonderful portraits from amazing artists I've found primarily through Pinterest. I've not yet painted my own portrait of Frida but I just know that I will. The pull is just too strong.
Wednesday, November 30, 2016
Getting My Sketching On!
Hi sweet little neglected bloglet! I'm b a a a c k !
Honestly it has been awhile and lots of odds and ends have been going on. Let's see, on the arts side, I am doing Julia Cameron's "The Artist's Way". I started an on-line group, "Exploring The Artist's Way" to go through it with (can you say accountability) There is about 60 participants, of course realistically I'm sure much fewer will stick with it. It has been interesting.
The primary activities are morning pages (a 3 page long brain drain each morning) and a weekly artist's date (a solo creative outing) and weekly writing tasks to go with the readings. It has been more time intensive than I anticipated. I'm not sure how much I've gotten out of it yet but I plan on following through as much as a tangible show of will power as creativity unblocking.
Finally, the most exciting general life thing is that I just got home from Nashville for Thanksgiving! Such a wonderful time with family! It is what I miss the most about living so far away (yes, even more than my bath tub) My girls will be down in Key West for Christmas so even more wonderfulness to come. There is nothing in this world that I care for more than my kids. I am so proud of the amazing young women my daughters have become. Yet seeing them bloom and fly, reminds me just how fast time is zooming by and how important it is to make each moment count. Goodness, it feels like they were my messy little munchkins only a few years ago.
On the topic of time rushing past -sometimes when I see myself, I am surprised, I expect to see a face maybe 20 years younger. I don't think you ever actually think of yourself as older (well except maybe when the aches and pains kick in) What a mixed blessing aging is. I do think that I've finally started becoming comfortable with myself, well at least most days anyway. My next goal is to try to become more comfortable in my actual skin - my body issues are so big. Literally as well as figuratively. besides wanting to become physically smaller, I want to let it matter less. Not judge myself so harshly. Well, that will be an on going task but hopefully this time I'll make it stick!
I'm going to try and be more regular in my posting so I'll be checking back in soon. Of course, if you like you can catch me on Facebook as Artfulbitsandbytes and Instagram as as artfulbitsandbytes_laurieanne -I tend to be a bit more active on these venues and would love to connect with you there.
Music for November:
Thanksgiving Song - Mary Chapin Carpenter
(Oh Yes, we went roller skating in Nashville & it was not quite as easy as I remembered but still just as fun -hence the following roller disco youtube links, lol!)
So Electric - Lifelike
Moves - Tahuna Breaks
Get Lucky - Daft Punk
Ciao Bella! Sweet Dreams!
Thursday, September 29, 2016
Karissa
Hi Ya'll! I just wanted to update with progress and final photos of the custom piece I mentioned in my last post. This will be a quickie. First the background, lots of yummy color and texture!
Next, I start ghosting out my girl and horse. (First time painting a horse -totally enjoyed the challenge!) I honestly could have kept it close to this and been happy but I felt for this particular painting defining more features was appropriate.
So more paint: butterfly, feathers & flowers! Then the words: sparkle & shine as well as lots of literal sparkle courtesy of my glittery gel pen and glow-in the dark paint for the stars. Finally some turquoise ribbon collaged on. This photo makes the face texture appear exaggerated which doesn't really happen in real life. It is on a nice thick panel board so the image continues on through the sides. Somewhere I have a much better final photo but for now this is pretty close. If I find it I'll add it if I can in the comments.
Well, that is my share for today! Serendipitously, the young lady is up for a reward for her horsemanship. How awesome is that -I had no idea at the conceptual stage. It is now with its new owner and she loves it (Yay! Yay! Yay!)
Here is my sketch that I shared in the previous post so you can see how she evolved. Pretty Fun, huh?
Music for Today: Kenny Chesney singing Wild Child
Friday, August 5, 2016
Just A Blogg'n on this Fine Fine Day!!
Hello Sweet Sunshine! Hello Beautiful Day!
Ok, going for real now! Have an amazingly artful day! Adios! Hasta Luego!
| Me, chillaxing to a little jazzy morning music mix after my shower while waiting for my clothes to dry! Post''n just 'cause I can -LOL! |
MUSIC FOR TODAY!
Morning Mix:
(David Lewis Luong is a member of the 'Music for Good' charity program on Reverbnation. For every song you buy from David's Reverbnation site (http://www.reverbnation.com/lewisluong), 50% of the money you spend on his songs will be donated to a charity organisation -almost an hour of music )
Breakfast Jazz by David Lewis Luong
Evening Mix:
(Beautiful quite long instrumental playlist of various artists -almost 4 hours of music)
Epic Fantasy Mix
Tuesday, July 5, 2016
sALt wATeR
The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears, or the sea!
My thoughts on TEARS, LOVE, & LIVING with progress pics of my latest art journal page.
I spent a wonderful afternoon overlooking the water at the marina on Marathon Key with my travel set of watercolors, pencil, white paint and black pen simply allowing myself to get lost in the moment. My Artful Bliss -no agenda, no timeframe, no pressure!
You know, It's funny how often tears show up in my artwork -well more often in sketches than final pieces but still I find it odd because I tend to be a very cheerful person. In fact, I don't recall crying much at all when I as a child. I was quite stoic. I think I've become more of a softie lately though as age and experience have simultaneously broken me down and wised me up. You see, tears to me represent letting go which in turn means not being in control. Now that's tough as I REALLY like being in control! I mean, I know I'm not actually in control -It's just an illusion. You see, I'm blessed to have a faith were I can trust that my sovereign God ultimately has got it all together and he has all the omnis covered (omnipresent, omnipotent, omniscient, ...) so I don't need to worry about anything no matter how small or how huge. But knowing and acting on that knowing are two very different things!
It can be hard to understand the twists and turns of life from this side of eternity -sort of like standing too close to impressionistic painting. It just looks like a lot of multicolored dots. It takes that distance and perspective to see the complete picture and how each spot of color works into the whole. It can be so easy while in the midst of the black dot to think it's all dark even though its just one speck of your life. I believe that's what makes age and experience such great teachers. For once we've gone through the rainbow (& eventually most of us will spend a little time in all the different hues), we can begin to see others (maybe going through a blue or purple period) with kinder eyes. For without having been there, we may intellectually understand where they're coming from but we can't "feel" it. I love this part of getting older. Honestly, I do!
My thinking has always been the core of my identity/my personality. Emotions on the other hand can throw me for a loop! I've never fully understood them properly (yeah, as if there's anything proper about emotions - LOL! They are such messy critters) Outwardly, I tend to remain calm like a glassy lake but below the still surface, storms can brew and I'll have no idea why or for what. It is hard to sort them out, more like an internal whirlpool sucking everything in. Now for those deep, bone-deep emotions like love -oh, I feel them so intensely! I think that's why when life throws a curve ball and dreams are shattered it hurts so much. It's why it is easier to create a protective armor of disassociation than risk the pain of feeling too much, but man that is no way to live. Passion can't fully emerge when bound by fear.
Tears can help dissolve this prickly coating, we have (or atleast me for sure) built up cocoon-like around our hearts. The tears can wash away the thick layer of debris which clouds our vision so we can see clearly again. I often go to Saturday night church because it has an extended music time at the end. It is less scripted and more impromptu. I find it a meaningful time for both prayers and tears. Beautiful tears, the quiet soft ones that slowly run down my cheeks taking away the sadness and bitterness and making way for joy in that heartbreaking rush of awe at the every day miracles and countless blessings that the dust of the daily grind too often obscures.
I know my thoughts are anything but linear -more scattered and tangent (no surprise), kind of like how you go to Google a simple tuna casserole recipe and hour later you are engrossed in an article about DNA enzymes. True story! But now what was I trying to say? -thoughts about tears, aging, living with my whole heart as well as my head or something to that effect. I think Brene Brown sums up so much of what has been swimming around in my head lately in her quote below. (Isn't it amazing how when you are thinking about something, inevitably the perfect song or quote or picture magically pops in to your life?)
"I think midlife is when the universe gently places her hands upon your shoulders, pulls you close, and whispers in your ear:
I’m not screwing around. It’s time. All of this pretending and performing – these coping mechanisms that you’ve developed to protect yourself from feeling inadequate and getting hurt –has to go.
Your armor is preventing you from growing into your gifts. I understand that you needed these protections when you were small. I understand that you believed your armor could help you secure all of the things you needed to feel worthy of love and belonging, but you’re still searching and you’re more lost than ever.
Time is growing short. There are unexplored adventures ahead of you. You can’t live the rest of your life worried about what other people think. You were born worthy of love and belonging. Courage and daring are coursing through you. You were made to live and love with your whole heart. It’s time to show up and be seen.''
I’m not screwing around. It’s time. All of this pretending and performing – these coping mechanisms that you’ve developed to protect yourself from feeling inadequate and getting hurt –has to go.
Your armor is preventing you from growing into your gifts. I understand that you needed these protections when you were small. I understand that you believed your armor could help you secure all of the things you needed to feel worthy of love and belonging, but you’re still searching and you’re more lost than ever.
Time is growing short. There are unexplored adventures ahead of you. You can’t live the rest of your life worried about what other people think. You were born worthy of love and belonging. Courage and daring are coursing through you. You were made to live and love with your whole heart. It’s time to show up and be seen.''
| I scanned and up the intensity of the blue so I could print and journal in white once I was back at my little art studio. Once done, I cut away the white edge. |
Pretty good stuff, huh? Now the hard part; taking the advise and acting on it! We can do it! I know we can! Curl up, have a good cry and get ready for great things, for they are a'coming!
Song for Today: (I just love this one)
| A few more words, lines to the sky, details to the fish and ta-da, here is a photo of my completed art journal page! |
And incase your in the mood for more, here is an additional Trio of Songs to enjoy:
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